《简爱(英文版)》

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 wild ones;” Miss Ingram had; and she ran over its vocabulary with an air。 I presently perceived she was (what is vernacularly termed) trailing Mrs。 Dent; that is; playing on her ignorance—her trail might be clever; but it was decidedly not good…natured。 She played: her execution was brilliant; she sang: her voice was fine; she talked French apart to her mamma; and she talked it well; with fluency and with a good accent。
Mary had a milder and more open countenance than Blanche; softer features too; and a skin some shades fairer (Miss Ingram was dark as a Spaniard)—but Mary was deficient in life: her face lacked expression; her eye lustre; she had nothing to say; and having once taken her seat; remained fixed like a statue in its niche。 The sisters were both attired in spotless white。
And did I now think Miss Ingram such a choice as Mr。 Rochester would be likely to make? I could not tell—I did not know his taste in female beauty。 If he liked the majestic; she was the very type of majesty: then she was acplished; sprightly。 Most gentlemen would admire her; I thought; and that he did admire her; I already seemed to have obtained proof: to remove the last shade of doubt; it remained but to see them together。
You are not to suppose; reader; that Adèle has all this time been sitting motionless on the stool at my feet: no; when the ladies entered; she rose; advanced to meet them; made a stately reverence; and said with gravity—
“Bon jour; mesdames。”
And Miss Ingram had looked down at her with a mocking air; and exclaimed; “Oh; what a little puppet!”
Lady Lynn had remarked; “It is Mr。 Rochester’s ward; I suppose—the little French girl he was speaking of。”
Mrs。 Dent had kindly taken her hand; and given her a kiss。
Amy and Louisa Eshton had cried out simultaneously—“What a love of a child!”
And then they had called her to a sofa; where she now sat; ensconced between them; chattering alternately in French and broken English; absorbing not only the young ladies’ attention; but that of Mrs。 Eshton and Lady Lynn; and getting spoilt to her heart’s content。
At last coffee is brought in; and the gentlemen are summoned。 I sit in the shade—if any shade there be in this brilliantly…lit apartment; the window…curtain half hides me。 Again the arch yawns; they e。 The collective appearance of the gentlemen; like that of the ladies; is very imposing: they are all costumed in black; most of them are tall; some young。 Henry and Frederick Lynn are very dashing sparks indeed; and Colonel Dent is a fine soldierly man。 Mr。 Eshton; the magistrate of the district; is gentleman…like: his hair is quite white; his eyebrows and whiskers still dark; which gives him something of the appearance of a “père noble de théatre。” Lord Ingram; like his sisters; is very tall; like them; also; he is handsome; but he shares Mary’s apathetic and listless look: he seems to have more length of limb than vivacity of blood or vigour of brain。
And where is Mr。 Rochester?
He es in last: I am not looking at the arch; yet I see him enter。 I try to concentrate my attention on those ting…needles; on the meshes of the purse I am forming—I wish to think only of the work I have in my hands; to see only the silver beads and silk threads that lie in my lap; whereas; I distinctly behold his figure; and I inevitably recall the moment when I last saw it; just after I had rendered him; what he deemed; an essential service; and he; holding my hand; and looking down on my face; surveyed me with eyes that revealed a heart full and eager to overflow; in whose emotions I had a part。 How near had I approached him at that moment! What had occurred since; calculated to change his and my relative positions? Yet now; how distant; how far estranged we were! So far estranged; that I did not expect him to e and speak to me。 I did not wonder; when; without looking at me; he took a seat at the other side of the room; and began conversing with some of the ladies。
No sooner did I see that his attention was riveted on them; and that I might gaze without being observed; than my eyes were drawn involuntarily to his face; I could not keep their lids under control: they would rise; and the irids would fix on him。 I looked; and had an acute pleasure in looking;—a precious yet poignant pleasure; pure gold; with a steely point of agony: a pleasure like what the thirst…perishing man might feel who knows the well to which he has crept is poisoned; yet stoops and drinks divine draughts nevertheless。
Most true is it that “beauty is in the eye of the gazer。” My master’s colourless; olive face; square; massive brow; broad and jetty eyebrows; deep eyes; strong features; firm; grim mouth;—all energy; decision; will;—were not beautiful; according to rule; but they were more than beautiful to me; they were full of an interest; an influence that quite mastered me;—that took my feelings from my own power and fettered them in his。 I had not intended to love him; the reader knows I had wrought hard to extirpate from my soul the germs of love there detected; and now; at the first renewed view of him; they spontaneously arrived; green and strong! He made me love him without looking at me。
I pared him with his guests。 What was the gallant grace of the Lynns; the languid elegance of Lord Ingram;—even the military distinction of Colonel Dent; contrasted with his look of native pith and genuine power? I had no sympathy in their appearance; their expression: yet I could imagine that most observers would call them attractive; handsome; imposing; while they would pronounce Mr。 Rochester at once harsh…featured and melancholy…looking。 I saw them smile; laugh—it was nothing; the light of the candles had as much soul in it as their smile; the tinkle of the bell as much significance as their laugh。 I saw Mr。 Rochester smile:… his stern features softened; his eye grew both brilliant and gentle; its ray both searching and sweet。 He was talking; at the moment; to Louisa and Amy Eshton。 I wondered to see them receive with calm that look which seemed to me so perating: I expected their eyes to fall; their colour to rise under it; yet I was glad when I found they were in no sense moved。 “He is not to them what he is to me;” I thought: “he is not of their kind。 I believe he is of mine;—I am sure he is—I feel akin to him—I understand the language of his countenance and movements: though rank and wealth sever us widely; I have something in my brain and heart; in my blood and nerves; that assimilates me mentally to him。 Did I say; a few days since; that I had nothing to do with him but to receive my salary at his hands? Did I forbid myself to think of him in any other light than as a paymaster? Blasphemy against nature! Every good; true; vigorous feeling I have gathers impulsively round him。 I know I must conceal my sentiments: I must smother hope; I must remember that he cannot care much for me。 For when I say that I am of his kind; I do not mean that I have his force to influence; and his spell to attract; I mean only that I have certain tastes and feelings in mon with him。 I must; then; repeat continually that we are for ever sundered:… and yet; while I breathe and think; I must love him。”
Coffee is handed。 The ladies; since the gentlemen entered; have bee lively as larks; conversation waxes brisk and merry。 Colonel Dent and Mr。 Eshton argue on politics; their wives listen。 The two proud dowagers; Lady Lynn and Lady Ingram; confabulate together。 Sir George—whom; by…the…bye; I have forgotten to describe;—a very big; and very fresh…looking country gentleman; stands before their sofa; coffee…cup in hand; and occasionally puts in a word。 Mr。 Frederick Lynn has taken a seat beside Mary Ingram; and is showing her the engravings of a splendid volume: she looks; smiles now and then; but apparently says little。 The tall and phlegmatic Lord Ingram leans with folded arms on the chair…back of the little and lively Amy Eshton; she glances up at him; and chatters like a wren: she likes him better than she does Mr。 Rochester。 Henry Lynn has taken possession of an ottoman at the feet of Louisa: Adèle shares it with him: he is trying to talk French with her; and Louisa laughs at his blunders。 With whom will Blanche Ingram pair? She is standing alone at the table; bending gracefully over an album。 She seems waiting to be sought; but she will not wait too long: she herself selects a mate。
Mr。 Rochester; having quitted the Eshtons; stands on the hearth as solitary as she stands by the table: she confronts him; taking her station on the opposite side of the mantelpiece。
“Mr。 Rochester; I thought you were not fond of children?”
“Nor am I。”
“Then; what induced you to take charge of such a little doll as that?” (pointing to Adèle)。 “Where did you pick her up?”
“I did not pick her up; she was left on my hands。”
“You should have sent her to school。”
“I could not afford it: schools are so dear。”
“Why; I suppose you have a governess for her: I saw a person with her just now—is she gone? Oh; no! there she is still; behind the window…curtain。 You pay her; of course; I should think it quite as expensive;—more so; for you have them both to keep in addition。”
I feared—or should I say; hoped?—the allusion to me would make Mr。 Rochester glance my way; and I involuntarily shrank farther into the shade: but he never turned his eyes。
“I have not considered the subject;” said he indifferently; looking straight before him。
“No; you men never do consider economy and mon sense。 You should hear mama on the chapter of governesses: Mary and I have had; I should think; a dozen at least in our day; half of them detestable and the rest ridiculous; and all incubi—were they not; mama?”
“Did you speak; my own?”
The young lady thus claimed as the dowager’s special property; reiterated her question with an explanation。
“My dearest; don’t mention governesses; the word makes me nervous。 I have suffered a martyrdom from their inpetency and caprice。 I thank Heaven I have now done with them!”
Mrs。 Dent here bent over to the pious lady and whispered something in her ear; I suppose; from the answer elicited; it was a reminder that one of the anathematised race was present。
“Tant pis!” said her Ladyship; “I hope it may d
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